Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Wot if i dont?


D world s tryin to change me...

Shall i change? Wot if i dont??

Its tryin to drag me out of my fairy land...

Shall i cum out? Wot if i stay??

Dey are attemptin to dope me...

Shall i get dopped? wot if i deny??

Dey want me to grow...

Shall i grow up? Wot if i still play??

Dis was never d purpose of my existence... or was dis?

Dis was never my ambition... or was Dis??

Was dis only my dream, my luv, my faith n my belief..................

Friday, November 6, 2009

think Positive...





Is it Friday today?? Time to have Friday ka Funda... This time its for gals exclusively so, "Sorry guyssss." Gals, you are beautiful so, all smart guys will give you attention... but what if not? Den d friday ka funda says...






if a smart guy s nt givin u attention
den dere can b only two rezonz...
either he s nt smart or
he is not a guy...
tell him to get checkups done ;-)

Monday, November 2, 2009

I wish...



You are the reason for my smile,
I wish I could only wipe up your tears…

Your words to me make legends true,
I wish I could tell just a fairy tale…

A few moments with you and I reach tranquility,
I wish I could take you a few steps from perturbation…

Sunday, November 1, 2009

...


O’ man when will you understand your singularity…

Why you always go for dummies leaving behind the real,

How will u escape the snake of 99 sprawling before terminus,

Or only passing pleasures is nuff,

Does a mother ever needs to be impressed by her child,

Or love too has started having types??

Friday, October 30, 2009

Keep the spirits up...

Who on this earth does not like compliments? But what if u feel u have done a gr8 job n nobody else acknoledges?? Well, in this case the Friday Funda says...





if people admire you den its coz you deserve it
else dey are being jealous...

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Present or Future

Dey say one should alws live in present n work of future. But wot to do if u find your present and future along two never crossing paths?? U are standing between two parallel roads…

To yor left is a road for yor present.. if u take dis road u spend a cheerful time dat u hv been doing till now but sumwhr deep in yor heart u know dat it is d track not for u, u shd hv not been on dis, as d road will lead to a dead end… it has no future…

N if u take d road to yor right, u start working for d future but u will have to stop being yourself… u’ll hv to stop living… n u will get lost in d materialism of d world making time which will probably never come…

Which route will u choose? To Present or to the Future??



Thursday, October 22, 2009

Tension for tension


Tensed? lemme take you to Mr. Friday. He got a Funda for everything...

something s haunting u n u can't do anything??
u can do one thing for sure...
cum out of ur cave
n spend lots of money
n if u r a gal
u can eat a lot too...
Tension of spending or eating a lot
will definitely over come yor actual tension :-D

Friday, October 16, 2009

Happy Diwali...





Hi frens,

Take my Greetings for Diwali here…
Diwali is celebrated as a remembrance of victory of Goodness over Evil. Don’t know how much true it is but yea this is the reason that its a festival of Lights… a symbol of hope, true spirit n progress… n it’s a festival of Togetherness… friendliness and love… So keeping the spirit of Diwali, i wish all my readers and non-readers, my frens and not frens, people with whom i interact on daily basis, the ones i will meet anytime in upcoming future, and the people i won’t ever come to know in this short span of life… “Happy Diwali”



i wish this Diwali brings
Immense pleasure in your lives
with it comes Wondrous joy
and Aesthetic thoughts
Love sprawls everywhere

and approaches glee Incandescent

Friday Ka Funda...



Fridaysss!! I guess, for all of us the day holds some special meaning… especially the ones in cooperate world like me. As many people so many ways to express their Friday Feel… Some call it Friday Fun and some may give it a name of Friday Fever… So, here I am also coming up with my Friday Funda’s…

To start with, let me put here something that I have already put somewhere in this blog...




Kill the Kulprit...

R u sad coz yor boyfriend/girlfriend doesn’t call you??
Change yor number immediately
n don give d new no. to him/her.
Now they can not call
you n u can’t b sad expectin their call

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Secrets of Success


Frenss, nothing frm my side today... js found this pic and could not stop myself from posting it on my beloved blog as of now. Cheers :-)
Apoorva Khurana

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Everything...


Tight pants or knee length skirt
layers of makeup n deodorant in doles
so far from home in vast metropolis
m getting ready for office its a Monday morning
I am independent, I am alone…
Deadline approaching lots of stuff to wind up
it was tiring Tuesday I had to stay back
on the way to home in AC cab, placed an order
for Mc Donald burger or pizza from Dominoz
also Johnni Walker sips keep me relaxed…
Its mid of week enough work done
no more labor, time for fun
Got company will go late night movie
Pepsi fountains, popcorn tub, return to home holding hands
its time to say bye and give good night kiss…
Thursday is for internet chats
exchange of numbers den long phone calls
talks n giggles are penetrating dark
its really been late now put phone down
m going to sleep in early morning hours…
Friday fever to welcome upcoming weekend
m partying hard in “The Party” disc
Rihanna is saying “please don stop the music”
beating the beats n dancing to hell m enjoyin
Tequila shots n Froster gulps…
Hangover in Saturday noon n on eve beauty saloon
manicure, pedicure, facial and hair spa,
plans for long drive and dazzling date tonight
delectable dinner and dessert at Baskin-Robbins
will talk and walk till midnight…
It’s a lovely Sunday morning, m half asleep
on such a comfortable bed in this beautiful hotel suit
m lying wid dis handsome guy on my side,
we made love all the night…
he says he loves me n I too think I trust him…
The month was sport its 30th today,
another five figures will add up in balance
Woodland shoes, Mont blanc glares n Lacoste perfume
Gap T-shirts and Gucci belt, wallet, watches
I have got everything I want…

I think I am happy… Am I not?

Saturday, October 10, 2009

lemme do wot ma heart says…


Lemme be a fool, lemme be innocent,

lemme do wot ma heart says…

May b their eyez r eviled

Spirit covetous n faces not real,

n i too can see sins in action but,

Lemme be a fool, lemme be innocent,

lemme do wot ma heart says…

Dey can burn ma world,

dey hv burnt ma world,

not only once so many times, still

Lemme be a fool, lemme be innocent,

lemme do wot ma heart says…

N for dose who luv me, i know u care

but please don mind if i say “do not disturb”

coz at end of d day, dis is wot makes me happy so,

Lemme be a fool, lemme be innocent,

lemme do wot ma heart says…

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

तेरी पलकें


कहा था उन्होंने भी वही मुझसे जो मैंने उनसे कहा था,
जब मैंने तेरी पलकों को छुआ था...

मोहब्बत...



जिस शिद्दत से हिफाजत करता है चाँद सितारों की बस उतनी सी मोहब्बत है तुम्हारे लिए...

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Hands of Death



It was late night… I was saturated of reading and surfing so, turned off my laptop and laid on to get lost in dreams when I felt like I was not alone in room. I could feel something.... but could not see anything around… I got up from my bed throwing blanket aside, looking around consciously but nothing to find…

I opened the door and all windows(my way to deal with fear at night)... Standing by window, I could watch the television program running in adjacent building. Tried to concentrate to be able to listen as well… and now I can feel someone keeping its hand on my back shoulder… turned back abruptly and saw nothing again…

Ahhh!! I hate it and I hate to be scared. I don’t believe in super natural powers but what else this could be?? “Eeee!! what the hell are you thinking Apoorva??” I scolded myself. I wanted to go back to sleep but by now was totally out of it (or was just pretending to avoid my confession to myself of being scared) Then, what to do at this point of time?? Took stairs to terrace thinking of walking a bit… but I'm tired, can't walk… preferred to sit and gaze around…

Very ordinary night and the sky calm as usual…the moon incomplete in itself posing as a guard for stars… cool breeze blowing… don’t know when I got melded into... thinking from everything to nothing, from introspect to retrospect and from my home to office…

Office? Ohhh!! I need to wake up early in morning and by now I should have been at bed. I got up thinking of spending a few minutes daily like this.

Entered the room, played soft music and plugged in earphones. Wrapped myself into blanket from head to toe and shut my eyes for another round through dreams… but what’s this, I can again feel someone touching me tenderly… “Enough!! enough Apoorva, it's being too much now”, and now I can even see two hands approaching me… “But how is it possible? Your eyes are shut darling”. I opened my eyes and what I see is a dark shade standing in front of me…“It’s a shade, where is the body”. Could find nowhere…

“Come to me, Hold my hand” it said.
Now, I had to scream “Who is this?”
It’s me, the death angel.
Then, what are you doing here?
I have come to take you.
What you talking about, I am too small?
This is the truth.
No, it can’t be me, it’s a mistake?
Not possible.
You can’t be serious?
This is the truth.

I stood breathless, the shade offering me its hand to hold… Helpless me, started to plead for some time… “Just a few years or few months or at least a few days…”
“Only till you hear the knell, after that will have to go”

I shut my eyes and started complaining to no one.. “This can’t be the truth. This is not fair. Why me? I'm still a kid. What bad I have done to anyone? I have so many things left to do… Have not done anything till now… I‘m still into my first job and stupid project... I wanted to jaunt the world… Dammn, have not even had a single boy friend till now and...... Oh Nooooo. What the hell have you been doing till now Apoorva?? You haven’t done anything even for your parents... My parents!! How will they be able to bear sudden death of their most pampered darling daughter? I am not even ill, haven’t got mere fever since many years… Won't they blame themselves for approving all my asks and allowing me to stay alone so far from them…” Shivers ran throughout my body….

And that was when I could hear the knell, the bloody knell… It was my time to go, leaving beloveds… I had to… I forced open my eyes to embrace the guest and found myself lying in a brighter space… to my right was my cell phone shouting to tell me its 6:30 already…

I heaved a big sigh :-)

Beauty

How will u define beauty?
If someone asked to me
I will answer as
The feeling that one heart has
The sky having stars
Bees present on flowers
The moon at night
And a flying kite
The scene of sunrise
Cooperation between fool and wise
The chirping of birds
And politeness in words
The dance of peacocks
And rainfall on rocks
The time of heat
And a home which is neat
The season of cold
A girl who is bold
The blowing winds
And the playing kids
A ship in an ocean
A citizen in its mother nation
The sight of love
An ant with the dove
A groom with his bride
And the mother with her child...

I found this in my diary i was mainintaining in 8th standard... now i feel, my intelect level has gone stagnanat since then :)

Monday, October 5, 2009

I ask WHY??


Why did u hurt me?

I loved you coz I was in luv…

And u hurt me,

I dint ask for anything

Den y did u hurt me,

I dallied very innocent

Still u did hurt me,

I could hv hidden dis frm u

N u could hv not hurt me,

I was being honest

U willingly hurt me,

Hurting was never a pain

But y did u insult me??

Saturday, September 26, 2009

life of pheonix...


As a kid, walkin in crisscross lanes holdin my mom’s hand m thinking...

How does she always know where to go...

Never observing d obvious n going for lateral thoughts,

Can this reason my love for boring black forgetting all coruscant colors?

And I can recall my geometry teacher probing for simplest problems,


as that was the only way he could put me in trouble...

Being at steep inclination angle,

performing algebraic operations in the living mathematics,

I am twisting real statistic, converting simpler things into complex...

Evading to exist like Frog of the well,

preserving ashes, m breathing life of phoenix…

where different people use many names to call...

are dey looking for personnel or d names??

This was my choice n I still prefer to have this as my pick…

chauffeuring on one way streak with no U Turn,

I will live n die and live again n die again till infinity…

knitting the daydreams in my own never land i believe,

Itinerary to tranquility is in tiding thoughts...

looking at hurrying vegetation outside my taxi window,

writing soliloquy, hurricane wavering in mind m thinking again,

locomoting around globe without any locus, covering areas of polygonal cosmos,

gaining experience of an idiot y don I get lost…

or I am already???

Friday, September 18, 2009

GoAway



Cant u see,
I don treasure u any more…
so, why don u go away?
yes, its true…
u been wid me in all ma lonely times,
its only u who kept me moving,
u were ma words wen I count speak
u were so reflexive alws,
I do appreciate yor concern…
I too hv loved u rough, u been so private…
but now, hv got so much of u,
dat m not a buff as before…
so, y don u leave?
u been wid me for a long now,
hv u seen me cryin for centuries??
m not a sentient any more…
its ur luv to me dat has left me numb…
yes, I don cherish yor being any more.. .
So, O’ Pain!!!
GO AWAY,
I don acknowledge u any more…
you r not an unpleasant feel anymore…
u can whip me no longer…
don u lure me of disambiguation,
don u pervert yor subsistence,
now, leave me alone…
n heal someone else' wounds...

Monday, September 14, 2009

...rain

O’ my lovely, lovely rain,
From where are you coming? Tell me, explain..
You are a virgin, you are so pure,
Shower your magic, don’t let it go wane...

O’ my lovely, lovely rain,
Purl into blood, embark in vein..
Filch bereavement, bestow life to cadaver
Pour pleasance in pulse, take all the pain…

O’ my lovely, lovely rain,
Take me to your origin, with you let me drain..
Sermon supernal connotation you have brought,
Edify my soul, aerify all bane…

O’ my lovely, lovely rain,
Touch me tenderly, let me go insane..
Drizzle mizzle me, make me go ooze
Pierce my heart, kiss mundane…

O’ my lovely, lovely rain,
Go to sess, go to sugarcane..
leave leaves coloured n flourish the flower,
Smear over soil, let it too gain…

O’ my lovely, lovely rain,
You have come on earth, visit every lane..
Let thicken your ecstasy throughout,
Go every abode, go every ane…

O’ my lovely, lovely rain..
From where are you coming? Tell me, explain…

Saturday, September 12, 2009

....Contradictions

Jhooth bolna paap h(to lie is a sin)... wasn’t dis one of d foremost lessons dat we learnt being kids? Still we all hv been takin lie shield everywhr in life orbit… can b to impress ur boss or a stud or lass… i tried goggling "Lie" n could see a no. of Lie classifications on Wiki n could also find anodr page givin tips on “how to lie”(lol)...

M livin in a state whr one s made to graduate in economics coz he count clear ecomomics paper in first attempt in scndry school(lol again)…

Anodr thing i read sumewhr… “Dere r 3 ways to get sumthing done, either do it yourself, hire sumone to do it or js forbid ur kids to do it”... D most excitin thing to ever do s d thing for which u hv been forbidden…
Dis is human drive or don know d psychology of universe… d light givin star alws ends up in a black hole, D sea water ws nvr worth drinkin… n d rains also cum aftr a hot day…

Yes, its d champaign of contradictions…We r livin in a world whr we wrk for sumthin n get d infringing…


… we cn try to turn d contradictions in our favor…

U r said coz ur boyfren doesn’t call u.. chng ur no. immediately n don give d new no. to him... nw, he cant call u n u cant be sad coz he dint call u… ha ha try it out, it works ;-)

Stupid, Rigid, Nonsense..... cant b nythin else den Love


yes, i love u
let it b ma confession
i love u, i love u
may b its d love season
as i can see no gud reason
still i love u, still i love u
n i know u hv cum to know too
but who d hell cares
i don care, i don care
so wot if u don luv
none is askin for...
i don need u, i don need u
do wotevr u cn do
nothin matters et all
i give a damn, i give a damn
bt dat doesnt mean i will stp
it wont change nything
i will luv u, i will luv u....

he he he :D :D ;)

Monday, September 7, 2009

My Contribution...


Energy… d only thing dat resides forever…
D whole universe is being governed by energy… Whatever we do or whatever we don’t do involves only one thing in common n dats energy…

Physics may have classified energy in many categories but here I will say that there exist only two forms of energy… Positive or Constructive Energy and Negative or Destructive Energy… Following d law of conservation “Total amt is constant n both are inter convertible”…

Now, its up to us only what we want to have… With each and every action of ours d energy is getting transformed.. We can have positive energies by positive thoughts, attitude, behavior, language, body language n everything else….... n d same holds good for d other form too. Not forgetting, our lives are affected inevitably by the vibrations around, lets try to have more of Constructive.... Not for anyone but for ourselves…
… but we r already surrounded by so much of Negative!!! How to deal wid dat??
To this my answer would be yes we can.. we can transform it into positive by being courteous at least till its really not required… till d water has not reached our heads…

I guess, I have had ma say. So, js to stp maself frm writin lemme end it wid lines as said by ma boss :

“lets pretend to be sober by flower power,
pretend till variance reaches our perimeters…”

Saturday, September 5, 2009

...not just Evil

I kept on complainin…
time hs changed,
ppl r not same,
d world is worldly.,
n souls r selfish…
I dint ever try,
lookin into myself…
but dat day…
I had to know,
I had to realize…
hv not I also changed?
n dat day…
wen i count withstand d dissent,
I had to surrender…
I had to b maself,
js for once,
I spoke myself out,
n played free…
…polite became politer,
long gone r comin back,
not just evil,
bonny bulk s near now…

M shoutin to me…
“hey you, wake up darling!!!
Open ur eyez,
Goodness is still around…”

For the spirit of innocence….

I can see u smile…
n I know d reason behind…

dats y I keep on sayin it again,

to make u smile...
wen you try to hide,
i know, u turn aside,
but I can still see u smile ...
as i know d reason behind…
hardest u try to keep in line,
i will be able to see a sparse smile...
n wen m not around,
I know, I can see a sated smile,
knowin dis gives me also,
a reason to smile…
Yes, I can see u smile,
n I know d reason behind…
but do u also know,
dat I know…
my innocence makes u smile... :-)

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Me and She



Sometimes I feel like there are two me's in me...

First 'me' is the one that was born with me... very gracious.. far from the real world... always lost in her own dreams... with pure heart and soft soul... who loves to love n care everyone around... this ‘me’ will always forgive essences who did something not good to 'me'... ‘me‘ does not even know that there exists something else also which is not the truth...

And the other is ‘she’.. ‘she’ kept coming into as I grew up... ‘she’ is a lady with pride... constantly obtaining chattels from outside world... very practical n daring... keeps d world beneath her feet... 'she' will never forget d affairs that went bad n d reason behind... ‘she’ is a perfect liar…

Both keep on conflicting each other but at times they are complementary too …

Whenever ‘me’ being feeble, gets hurt ‘she’ takes domination n rebukes ‘me’ to not shed tears bothering about futile things n foreign particles…. n when ‘she’ is trying to take wrong path out of her impatience n aggressiveness ‘me’ silently holds her hand n projects her to d precise trajectory…
‘she’ encourages ‘me’ to take necessary risks n to not b scared, while ‘me’ keeps on preaching ‘she’ about hallowed intent n d sanctified spirit ritual…

When ‘me’ is putting efforts to preserve her innocence…
‘she’ keeps on fighting to win her existence…

I feel both are veracious. I go wordlessly wherever dey chauffeur.

Monday, August 31, 2009

I Am a Woman

You came to me knowing I am weak...
I loved you,
I gave myself,
You left me even weaker...
Now, I am fragile,
I am sensitive...
I admit.
But I wont be like this tomorrow...
I am a woman,
I am the power...
It wont let my 'me' ever die,
This whirlpool will tumble ebbing all the gloom,
Then I will come up with a fresh soul...
I am the origin,
I am truth,
I am the beauty,
I am strength,
And I am the will,
I am energy...
I will reside forever,
And gone will be you...
I admit,
I was fragile,
I was sensitive,
But I wont be like this ever again....

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Everything is in my favor...



i was a kind of mourner sum years back

den started trusting in me n enjoyin life...

started takin things positively n started being nice...

everythin seemed in ma favor… no need to mourn ever

executed expectations n dreams got dried..

aspirations wer killed to learn to smile

m nt blind, hav js shut ma eye

i do wotevr i want, stopped being shy…

i can make ma day…. i am selfish

kept ma head somewhr n forgot… i am a fool

i laugh at me n dey too laugh,

pleasure is mine, don know who is d fool

vulnerable wits concede vanity

wen stance sprawls, witnessed is purity

past has past, don u fuck d future

livin d moment, hs alws made d verve

bet d stroke n cede upshot...

m js being positive n m being nice...

everything seemes in ma favor… no need to mourn ever

Saint...



dey say i don believe in god,
i say, m a saint...

i don go to temple
to get ma wishes granted,
to grumble for sorrows
or to thank for opportunities...
dey say i don believe in god,
i say, m a saint...

ma parents are ma god,
ma sis d divine force,
ma spouse will b ma prayer,
n ma kid an angel,
dey say i don believe in god,
i say, m a saint...

hv come on dis beauty,

to distribute d gift of luv,
to accept a lover,
n to appease ma beloved,
dey say i don believe in god,
i say, m a saint...

mistakes are humanly,
no regrets, no fear for slip ups,
hv learnt to move on,
explorin adventures of life,
dey say i don believe in god,
i say, i am a saint...

I wont be saying you...


i wont b sayin u coz m shy,
either u perch on or do fly,
i love u so much dat it wont evr die,
d intensity of mah luv u said is high,
to let u know reason its personality thy,
if u do feel luv of my,
me can sense d care thy....
i wont b sayin u coz...

gone are d dayz wen hopes were high,

nw, i can see d clear sky,
u are not mine, i wont ever cry,
take ma words i will nvr pry,
bt will love u forevr don know why...
i won b sayin u...

Mirror reflects perfectly...



"Mirror reflects perfectly, It does not make mistake because it does not know to think"
i read it somewhr,
nw its hauntin me...
shll all stop thinkin?

js to evade gaffe,
arn't dey obvious?
will things b perfect den?
wot is perfect?
n wot is perfection...
like wot is an absolute??
lets call it a state of zero...
an absolute a pERfeCt zero,
ZERO!!!!
now, wots a zero??

hv u evr seen a zero?
m i too puzzled,
or are u clear....
now, wot is clearity???
can clearity make things perfect or an absolute?
don things keep on goin...
n go on changin...
can stars only shine n stop twinklin?
even d sun goes for eclipse...
hmmmmmmm
i think perfection is zero
n only zero is perfect...
let d mirror b an exception.
:-) :-) :-)
hey, don go away, js one more thought...
" I was looking for keys for years and the door was always open" :-D :-) :-P ;-)

You were ma wings...



i count hold ma tears,
i ran away,
was bangin on u,
wen u said u love me,
i got d wings...
y u said u love me,
even i do.
hv come till here
bt wen did we start?
did we walk togethr,
i never knew,
was it u,
who held ma hand....
esences hv met,
so will cadavers,
but who will commence,
our gods are different...
ma love is a blessin,
pls don call it a curse,
its been sacred ever,
n will always be.....
u live ur breaths,
ill breathe ma demise,
coopin u in ma heart,
m shippin away,
u'll be mine,
till eternity.....
wont ever loose u,
n wont loose d last mile
if u ever miss me,
m dere wid u, near to u...
cant u see me?
look into ur heart,
m nt dere?
shuffle your soul,
u'll find me....
.... smilin, perchin,
i coulnt fly away,
i don hv ma wings........