Sunday, June 26, 2016

The Harder you try to break me, the stronger I will emerge... I am the Pheonix and will be reborn from my ashes...

Sunday, June 19, 2016

My Life, my way....

I go out have fun; I go shopping, I go to saloon pamper me and watch movies but does that mean the world has right to judge me? This is my way to deal with the crisis I am going through. I do not want to break, I want to take it gracefully. I have always believed in the beauty of the life and I will always.
Even the sorrows are precious to me, they have always been. They add variation to life and value to happiness. I feel alive in pain. I feel human. I feel the strong woman in me and it does not mean that I am not allowed to cry sometimes either.
A strong woman is a woman first of all. These are my emotions and I am free to express them in a way I feel I am comfortable in and when I do so I am not looking for any one's sympathy or empathy and the least I am looking for is a third man's company.
I speak openly about my broken relationship it only means that I am not comfortable lying. I am just being honest in the relationship which I have with you. I have solo profile picture on social network websites and I am flooded with Facebook or Instagram connect requests.
          Have some sense. I might be breaking from the love of my life. My first love ever. I would have my own reasons for that and I would have struggled to make it work for years. I have been optimistic those five years and did not ever think that I may have to break up someday. I always knew if will work out sooner or later though it did not eventually and if it did not that does not imply I am not allowed to have a life.
I might wear a broad smile socially but it does not mean that I do not cry myself to sleep some day. It is not an opportunity to woo me even if I smile to you as a courtesy.

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

कलयुग की बात करते हैं....

जन्म देने वाली माँ को दुत्कार कर संस्कारों की बात करते हैं,
बीच बाज़ार नग़्न खडे जो, वो इज्जतदारों की बात करते हैं।
शीशे के घरों में रहने वाले दीवारों की बात करते हैं,
दो क़दम ना चल पाए वो संग और परिवारों की बात करते हैं।।

अपने सुख में भी जो संतुष्ट नहीं वो दुखियारों की बात करते हैं,
उजालों से ना कभी बाहर आए जो, वो अंधकारों की बात करते हैं ।
सदा अकेले रहने वाले हज़ारों की बात करते हैं,
ख़ुद के लालच की सीमा नहीं और पुण्यकारों की बात करते हैं।।

तिजोरी को ताला लगाकर वो क़र्ज़दारों की बात करते हैं,
अपने अहं में माग़रूर वो ज़िम्मेदारों की बात करते हैं।
शराब के नशे में डूबे हुए, होशियरों की बात करते हैं,
शमशान में जले मुर्दे, पहरेदारों की बात करते हैं।।

वर्णमाला सीखी नहीं, साहित्यकारों की बात करते हैं,
कफ़न ओढ कर लेटे हैं और जानदारों की बात करते हैं।
कुओं के मेंढक, सारे संसारों की बात करते हैं,
पतझड़ में गिरे हुए पत्ते, बहारों की बात करते हैं।।

बैठें हैं झोली फैलाकर और देनदारों की बात करते हैं,
अग़ल बग़ल की ख़बर नहीं और समाचारों की बात करते हैं।
अपनी दहलीज कभी लांघी नहीं पर दरबारों की बात करते हैं,
खुदख़ुशी करके वो हत्यारों की बात करते हैं।।

Monday, February 22, 2016

जाटों का हारियाणा????

The whole city was sealed, Military forces were patrolling right outside my house.... My dad who is 65+ and is diabetic too could not manage one or half a litre of milk for a cup of tea in two days everything being shut; Many people including Old Aged, ladies and even kids were awake all night to guard their small shops so that no anti social animal should burn them out of their greed....
Why- Just for a little percentage of reservation?
Who- The locals of Haryana??
I live in Haryana. I was born & brought up in Haryana. I have seen land prices multiply like anything in Haryana then why this need or I should say greed of being called as nothing but BACKWARD?
I am a Punjabi (Multani) living in Haryana, a minority whose grandparents migrated from Pakistan after abandoning  their everything to start a new life from scratch during partition crisis. If I do not want a reservation for me then why the locals?

Many of my friends are Haryanvi (Jaats), we have gone to same schools and played together. NO OFFENCE but a friendly question to all of them, may be to understand their version of story "Why? Why this greed? Why this civil war? Lets assume you get this so called reservation but after that would you guys be able to call yourself 'A JAAT' as proudly as you do now?"

To sum up my post I would recall a verse we used to write in our Paragraphs on Haryana for Hindi Assignments:

देसाँ मा देस हारियाणा,
ज़ित दूध दही का खाणा।।

Lets not defame 'OUR HARIYANA' frens, thats all I can say.... #Jaat #JaatReservation #Reservation #JaatAndolan

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

The Call

I was still in bed when Mr. Mukesh Sharma the bank manager gave me a call and wished me Good Morning. I too wished the same in return. He told me that I had missed the annual renewal of my ATM card and in order to continue using I must renew the same now. Since I wanted to renew he told me he needs a few details from my side and asked me my Card Number, Expiry and Cvv.

I asked "But whose card are you going to renew?"
Confused he asked "What?"
I asked "Whose card? Mine or my husbands?
"Ma'm I can renew only your card"
"Okay, so I shall share the card details of Lokesh or Apurva?"
"Lokesh Ma'm"
"Fine, but which card?"
"Ma'm in which bank accounts you have?"
"I have accounts in multiple banks, do I need to renew all the cards?"
"Yes, Ma'm we can do that but one by one"
"Okay, I have account in Swiss bank also will you be able to activate the ATM card for that as well?"
"Yes ma'm, but you will have to share the cards details. Please tell me the complete name on the card."
"But I don't have card for that account, will you be able to provide me one?"
"No ma'm, I can only renew your cards provided you share the card details. Please tell me the Full name, card number, expiry and cvv on the card."
"Okay , okay I got your point but I don't remember my card details and the card too is not with me as of now, so I will tell you a way so that my card details will populate on your screen, will that be fine?"
"Sure ma'm."
Please hang over and dial "100" from your phone.
Phone banged.

I guess, all of you must have understood by now what happened. I had received a hoax call from anonymous person pretending to be the bank manager intending to obtain my card details. Since this was the second time I received such call, I could have above dialogue. First time, by doing only what he said, I had almost shared my card details except Cvv which I refused to share at any cost.

"Stay Alert !!!"

Thursday, September 10, 2015

The 48 Laws of Power by Robert Greene

"Ways to obtain 'The Power' or success in life"
Fortunately or unfortunately the book landed in my hands when I ordered the book The Power (The Secret #2). Disappointed to see a different book I immediately dialed customer care to claim the refund and return but I could not avoid the temptation to flip through the book and subsequently reading it.
The book is a collection of 48 cruel laws that you need to master to attain 'The Power'. The author Robert Green jots down the tales from history to support the merciless, cunning and ruthless rules. It is a wicked composition for success which does not care about the moral values and concentrates on only obtaining "The Power".

The laws are summed up in another post The laws of power.

Laws of Power: The 48 Laws of Power

  1. Never Outshine your Master
  2. Never put too much trust in friends, learn how to use enemies
More to come....

तुम्ही से प्यार...

बंद आँखों से तेरा इंतज़ार करती हूं,
सुबह से शब् तक और शब् से सुबह तक तुझे याद बार बार करती हूं,
लो आज मैं ये इकरार करती हूं,
कि तन से रूह तक मैं सिर्फ तुम्ही से प्यार करती हूं। 
हर बात, हर एक मुलाकात, एक एक एहसास में शामिल हो,
तुम्ही चित, तुम्ही उचित, नहीं कभी अनुचित हो,
तेरे प्रत्येक कथन का सत्कार करती हूं ,
लो आज मैं ये इकरार करती हूं  कि  तन से रूह तक मैं सिर्फ तुम्ही से प्यार करती हूं। 
दो रोज की मोजूदगी व् एक घडी की ताक है,
जानती हुं बस वियोग ही इस प्रीत की नियति है,
अलगाव है कल के लिए, आज स्नेह को बरकरार करती हूं ,
लो आज मैं ये इकरार करती हूं  कि तन से रूह तक मैं सिर्फ तुम्ही से प्यार करती हूं। 
चाहे नमी से भर जाएँ दो नयन, किन्तु मुस्कुराएंगे दो अधर,
होगा वो लम्हा भी तुम्ही से ही अनिरुक्त,
उस पल का, उस क्षण का भी उतनी ही आतुरता से इंतज़ार करती हूं ,
लो आज मैं ये इकरार करती हुं कि तन से रूह तक मैं सिर्फ तुम्ही से प्यार करती हूं.… 

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Missing you...

Where has gone the fregrance of flowers
why night is not calm and the sky not blue
suddenly sea has found limits and fishes forgot to swim
why moons are many and stars in queue
why birds are not chirping anymore
and in winter morning there is no dew
why butterflies are black and white
and cupid has learnt to hew
why winds have stopped blowing
mountains not high and colors in rainbow are few
why maples seem ordinary and fireflies lost in dark
to whom sun has sent on its lieu
summer, winter are coexisting and autumn has come before spring
from where did cuckoo learn to mew
why soil is not wet in the rain
everything is tainted and everything new

people altered, even me not same
have all really changed or its just absence of you...

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Lemme dream......


Yor name is wot m chantin unconsciously…

Thoughts of u are makin me smile…

I heard yor voice n got d contentment…

Saw u at far n i made ma day…

U looked at me n m at bliss…

Now u r wid me, i need no makeup…

Yor slightest touch n i feel weak…

Ma eyez r open but m in dream…

The Stranger...



Kaise ek ajnabi bahut khaas ho jata hai
jaise veerane m koi phool khil jata hai...

Aawaj kisi ki kyon lagti h pyari,

aur mehkati hain saanse ban kar gulaab...
kyoun uske jikr par muskura deten hain hoth bhee

kaise wo rooh ko sammohit kar jata hai

Aata hai khayalon m bankar aajad panchi,
kaise wo mann ka mehmaan ho jata hai,
kyon machalte hain armaa bas usi ka naam sun kar,

kaise wo mehmaan hi armaan ho jata h

Kyoun ho jata h uski har aadat se pyaar,
har aadat se pyar, har shararat se pyaar...
kyoun lubhaati h dil ko uski har khata bhee,

tab khataaon se uski ho jata h pyaar

Deti hai sukun kyoun uske aane ki aahat,

fir mulakaat ko soch kar mann ghabrata hai,
kyon aagosh m uski jaane ko jee chahe,
bin chue chooan ka ehsaas mil jata h

Kyoun ehsaas naya sa lagta haseen hai,

naya sa haseen sa waqt tham jata h,
kyon adhoora sa lagta h aks bin uske,
kaise wo astitv ka ansh ban jata h,

kaise wo astitv ka ansh ban jata h....

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

More of मोहब्बत...

प्यार की देहलीज पर रख कर कदम अन्दर जाने से डर रही हूँ , जिसकी मोहब्बत में चली आई यहाँ तक उसको भनक भी नहीं है...

सारी धरती मैं घूम आई, पूरा आकाश भी देख लिया... क्षितिज पर क्योँ तुम बैठे हो?

वो तन्हा छोड़ कर चले गए, गुमशुदा साँसों से जी रही हूँ , मर गई होती कबकी पर मुलाकात की उम्मीद अभी बाकी है...

Monday, February 8, 2010

D only truth...


You are being missed evry moment…
And I know, you are missing me more than I do…

whenever you speak to me, I hear only one question…
I presume you are reading my silence…
I'm trying my best to reach you…
but right now d settings are not in my hand…
I will have to be here to be there with you…
I can see the world contracting…
Its not very long wen w'll be together…
Till then let it pretend to be my sweetheart…
And let me enact to fondle the nigglings…
Soon w’ll b one…
And the whole existence w'll come to know of the only truth…
our love…

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

M not rite………………….


A man is at his worst when he pretends to be gud… Dis is wot m doin dese dayzz. M doin wot dey want me to do rather dan wot i want to do… y? May b m scared… but scared of wot? Y m not able to gather courage to follow ma heart?? I really don know d answer… but again as dey say wotevr happens, happens for gud only…

m turned mute n she is roaring
she is none else dan me, she is scoring
i tried to put d blame on my ‘I’
‘I’ consented but did question ‘why?’
coz m weak, m actin audacious
At far i hear, laughter n cry in a chorus
tryin to construe things at dis odd hour of nite,
wen wid every tick of time i know, im not rite………………….

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Wot if i dont?


D world s tryin to change me...

Shall i change? Wot if i dont??

Its tryin to drag me out of my fairy land...

Shall i cum out? Wot if i stay??

Dey are attemptin to dope me...

Shall i get dopped? wot if i deny??

Dey want me to grow...

Shall i grow up? Wot if i still play??

Dis was never d purpose of my existence... or was dis?

Dis was never my ambition... or was Dis??

Was dis only my dream, my luv, my faith n my belief..................